wondering why I put myself in situations I do… wondering why that is not until AFTER I do things that I understand the consequences… why do I continue to do the same or similar things, KNOWING that the outcome will be the same as previous attempts??? Why do I give, try to help, and at the same time give up myself? Why can I not be happy with what I have no matter how good or bad it is? Why am I always searching for something “else”???
Pondering this for awhile…
Why do I take the good things in my life and destroy them? Why do I question when I am told I deserve good things??? Why do I not think I deserve them? Why do I reject happiness… purposely sabotage the positives in my life?
If I knew these answers, I may be able to be happy…
